I just watch the most amazing movie "Dear John". So I went to the movie by my self to do something other then be in my room. So the movie was soooo good but I think I cried the whole movie. As I'm sitting there crying all by my self I realized that it was not just because of the movie. It remanded me of me. As John get send back to war and leaving his love behand I started thinking of everyone that I love and miss so much. I meen the movie was saaad but sitting ther by my self in a contery I never thought I would live in and knowing that I could sitting with all my loves in sweden or San Francisco. I start wounder if I made the right decision and how long I could last here. All I dreaming of is movie and coffee with my frindes at home or chilling with my parents in the summer house. I have been lonley before but never so lonley as I am right now.

I know everything gos up and down and some days are better then other. I had an amazing night out friday with some amazing girl but it's not the same and that is friends I might see one time a week.

And it's not helping that Lindas birthday is coming up, valentin and my birtday. That just make me more sad and lonley.

Don't get me wrong at home, I'm okey but just right now I would like to be more than okey. But I'm a fighter so I don't give up that fast. And I'm always going to look back and be proud of my self and the journey that I made.

The bottenline is that you should see the movie because it's a good movie. And one scen with the solders there is a swedish and American flag together. It's the only flags and if you see the movie think if me whenever you see that.